Yours and only Yours

Yours and only Yours
I will remain forever.
Every gush of darkness makes me surer,
Everything in this world
I can forsake,
This is a promise
I dare to make,
In spite of myself.

I know tomorrow will be another battle,
Defeated I may still find myself.
But grateful I am for the darkness,
Had they not strangled me
I might have never known
That each breath gasps for
You and only You.

I care not for any reward,
Care not for fulfillment.
You continue to make Yourself visible,
I care not for a meeting.
You continue to splash Your Grace
Upon the dark fire,
And burning forever, I will
Make my desire.
You continue to soothe them
 With Your inexplicable love
I will cherish the wounds
Like blessings from above.

But there is one fear
The heart asks to express.
If ever there comes a day
Where my folly gets the better of me
And I cross over Your line
Find myself following the path of falsehood.....
I stop right now,
Sure of the impossiility.

This is not a game I have been playing,
Lives have been abondoned to come to this,
An entire existence has awaited this fulfillment.
Eternity has been experienced
To see Your gaze.
Beyond choice has the journey moved,
Beyond doubt has the conviction reached.

Something within knows for sure,
If prevented from entering Your doors,
It will wait at Your doorstep for eternity or more.
But never return to those dark alleys again.
Because life with You or none at all,
There has never been any third resort.

Just Got Aware

Just got aware,
Have been belonging to You
All along.
An unbreakable bond we share,
Weak before it all darkness
However strong.

Just got aware,
Of Your hands around me.
It held me tight all along,
Picking me up during the steeps so high.
Anchoring me during the bends so low.

Just got aware
Of the flame lit by You.
It has been burning all along,
Outlining the shadows
Of all thing yet to be Yours.

Just got aware,
Of Your abode right inside me.
You lived there all along,
Smiling silently,
While I ushered guests
In and out.

Just got aware
No matter how many dark rulers
I have nourished,
Your love will ensure
They return me unblemished.

No matter how out of hand
Turns the fight,
Your Grace will ensure,
The curtains fall down
When the time is right.

Just got aware
Of the spaces deep within,
Echoing with Your silence.
It is here that the mist clears,
Dissolving all distances between us,
Stages the comforting embrace,
And everything else fades out,
As tears herald the applause.