I know even now Your gaze lingers on me.
For You might have to ensure
The final act too is just as it ought to be.
Here I am, at the edge of the cliff
Frozen I lie, mute I see
My loved ones, all scattered in this valley.
In turns they left me, with memories and pain.
And my entire life plays before me
In silence I reel.
Hate and strife,
Oppression and fear,
Loss and cries,
Smiles and tears,
Battles and enemies,
Defeats and victories
All pay the customary last visit.
But the heart hardly throbs,
Impassive even to such stirring emotions.
Save one smile which curled up my lips
When I remembered our first meeting
And one tear when our last.
And one sigh when that bow slipped out of my hands,
As if all my glory was a thing of the past.
Then I felt that familiar sinking,muscles all tense
I knew yet another breakdown was on its way.
But I indulged in it with a secret joy
For by now I had understood this well
My folly invokes Your presence more than my sense.
Thus, You came and intervened
Cleared my vision, blurred the triviality
Then all what remained was a path to Infinity
And just You and me walking on it.
Sometimes You were behind me,
I was hardly aware of Your hand propelling me.
Sometimes You were ahead of me
By my hand leading me.
Sometimes or rather often I stopped dead in my tracks,
Those moments extracted Your knowing smile
And patiently you held me in Your embrace
Till I was ready again to be worthy of your grace.
You dealt as only You could.
Sometimes You explained, at others revealed
Sometimes You cajoled, at others rebuked
Some times You suggested, at others instructed
But above and beyond all, you LOVED.
You loved as only You could.
And my entire being exalts when it recalls those eyes.
Those tender eyes which kept my fragile self affixed.
Now soaked I am yet again in its shower
I feel the known rhyme of Your breath
As it blows away my failures and woes
All that remains is just Bliss.
And Love.
Love in the joy of Union
Love in the pang of separation.
Thus,there was peace on my face,
Contentment in my heart.
Gratitude in my soul
And no sorrow or sense of loss.
Instead I broke into a laughter
And the entire valley echoed with it.
It looked like you joined in too,
For this sudden advent of music
Surely finds it's origin in you.
We laughed and laughed so loud
That it sounded like a thundering clap
Befitting it was, since the curtains of the Divine Play
Had just come down.
So finally I took the plunge
Closed my eyes, yet Light is all I see.
And I ascend and ascend higher
While I look over my shoulder
To see our empty stage left behind
With stories, legends and myths
Giving it company.
For the Truth...
That I carry along with me.
And finally we meet again.
The part becomes whole
As the illusion of separation melts.
Tasks all done, roles all lived
Fulfilled in You at last I cease.
Though this eternal play shall continue
We shall return, perhaps new roles assume.
And I know and accept Your will as Supreme
But I cannot help but make this plea,
The next time You tread on earth,
By Your side again, reserve my birth.
For You might have to ensure
The final act too is just as it ought to be.
Here I am, at the edge of the cliff
Frozen I lie, mute I see
My loved ones, all scattered in this valley.
In turns they left me, with memories and pain.
And my entire life plays before me
In silence I reel.
Hate and strife,
Oppression and fear,
Loss and cries,
Smiles and tears,
Battles and enemies,
Defeats and victories
All pay the customary last visit.
But the heart hardly throbs,
Impassive even to such stirring emotions.
Save one smile which curled up my lips
When I remembered our first meeting
And one tear when our last.
And one sigh when that bow slipped out of my hands,
As if all my glory was a thing of the past.
Then I felt that familiar sinking,muscles all tense
I knew yet another breakdown was on its way.
But I indulged in it with a secret joy
For by now I had understood this well
My folly invokes Your presence more than my sense.
Thus, You came and intervened
Cleared my vision, blurred the triviality
Then all what remained was a path to Infinity
And just You and me walking on it.
Sometimes You were behind me,
I was hardly aware of Your hand propelling me.
Sometimes You were ahead of me
By my hand leading me.
Sometimes or rather often I stopped dead in my tracks,
Those moments extracted Your knowing smile
And patiently you held me in Your embrace
Till I was ready again to be worthy of your grace.
You dealt as only You could.
Sometimes You explained, at others revealed
Sometimes You cajoled, at others rebuked
Some times You suggested, at others instructed
But above and beyond all, you LOVED.
You loved as only You could.
And my entire being exalts when it recalls those eyes.
Those tender eyes which kept my fragile self affixed.
Now soaked I am yet again in its shower
I feel the known rhyme of Your breath
As it blows away my failures and woes
All that remains is just Bliss.
And Love.
Love in the joy of Union
Love in the pang of separation.
Thus,there was peace on my face,
Contentment in my heart.
Gratitude in my soul
And no sorrow or sense of loss.
Instead I broke into a laughter
And the entire valley echoed with it.
It looked like you joined in too,
For this sudden advent of music
Surely finds it's origin in you.
We laughed and laughed so loud
That it sounded like a thundering clap
Befitting it was, since the curtains of the Divine Play
Had just come down.
So finally I took the plunge
Closed my eyes, yet Light is all I see.
And I ascend and ascend higher
While I look over my shoulder
To see our empty stage left behind
With stories, legends and myths
Giving it company.
For the Truth...
That I carry along with me.
And finally we meet again.
The part becomes whole
As the illusion of separation melts.
Tasks all done, roles all lived
Fulfilled in You at last I cease.
Though this eternal play shall continue
We shall return, perhaps new roles assume.
And I know and accept Your will as Supreme
But I cannot help but make this plea,
The next time You tread on earth,
By Your side again, reserve my birth.
